Here you cannot forget or remember

Useless Guys

“The very idea that you need to be something different that you are, the idea that there is something you can get, all that was placed into you!” ......UG Krishnamurti .

A reflection appearing confused

Morning walk

Sometimes I can wake up in the morning and feel like I have had enough. Enough of the whole thing in the sense that I have to do something to make something of myself. It is like a confused message maybe a mild depression , yet not like the one Lord Ram had (as depicted in the Yoga Vasistha). That you have to show the world that you are doing right and good and on the other hand here is another world, another layer which is secret and in a lot of ways ,unspoken. It is the intimate side of seeing without having all this commentary and expectations from society or the mind. It is the silent and immediate

ordinariness of just being where you are which is contented. The people I meet and friends tell me this story one way or another or they convey some secret life in bits and pieces just enough to hear before I jump in my van and go home. Either they can say 'so what!’, and in so doing, reveal some ordinariness to me . Otherwise they ride the wave of wonder and see in delight .Some great experience which arrives in this silent and never ending self. This experience then disappears to absolve everything including the experience. How this is known I have no idea, but can only see the path and invisible line which runs there or here.

From itself to itself

What am I writing about? You may ask .Well it’s about what happens to us everyday, either you have a good day or you have a bad day or you have some underlying unsatisfactory feeling that lurks just there in the back ground while your having a good day :) or neither . Meanwhile I will get on with the job of being sucessful in this world. So something is missing in that ,and we have to look and see what the missing one is all about. Where is the gap gone that we have to fill? Now when we have a chance and really see.

See Ying Yang

And that means having a really good direct look at yourself, we will see or experience a place where our mouth is shut and our senses will be still and listening will be muted. Then nothing is missing and all is without words or understanding. Instead we are just as we are without any understanding. Passing all understanding as the biblical saying goes ‘the peace that passeth understanding ’.Here you cannot forget or remember anything, and your memory is not needed. So this raises another curious question can an Alzheimer patient forget themselves?

Sunrays

Yet aside from this you may ask how does this happen? How and what are you talking about?.......... “Of course I am happy; I’m not having midlife crisis like you are. I 'm not waiting for the love of my life. I’m just cruising along singing my song and people are very loving all the time, or I am or if I’m not I’m trying to be” ……………. "Consider the lilies of the fields" …………….I hear a voice drop into the quiet pool of my mind. I certainly have to let you know that I am not going to tell you something that you do not know. That you do know the answer is something that most teachers and masters will tell you blatantly. For example one wild and wise friend of mine has said “You are asking questions to which you already have the answers. If you did not have the answer, you could not have the question.” Or just go to any Satsang now a days and you will hear the same message that has been told thousands of years before Christ, any good Vedantin will tell you “You are whole and complete as you are” already.



In the fullness is the fullness.

Why just look at the mantra that begins in the Ishavasyo Upanishad:

Om pUrNamadah pUrNamidam pUrNAt pUrNamudachyate pUrNasya pUrNamAdAyapUrNamevAvashiShyateOm shAntih, shAntih, shAntihi

[Completeness is that, completeness is this,from completeness, completeness comes forth.Completeness from completeness taken away,completeness to completeness added,completeness alone remains.Peace, peace, peace!]

Om
So, you are complete, whole and action less. Yet you can have a house full of books and still try to get something, to acquire; that state of unending perfect happiness. And this can never be a state you can have permanently. Yet you are already the something that you are missing, not only that, you are NOT this some thing (you are NOT separate) and this you have to find out for yourself:) To sit quietly and see is what matters and to see without seeing with a wandering mind that wants to fix and understand. To understand this you have to feel deeper than your thoughts. By feel I do not mean emotionally but to look directly at existence and plunge to where this comes from.

Going to the Roots

Do you see the infinity of yourself? Is it not unending? You cannot take away or add anything to the nature that is you. Does this mean I know more than you or that you know more than me? What am I understanding? Or is it beyond understanding.

You cannot take away or add anything

Looking and not looking happen within this unending nature. Expectation, unsatisfactory feelings arise in this unending vision. The appearance of coming and going can hypnotize us into believing that we are not complete .As one good friend advised me when I told him about a relationship that was not going right , “ Don’t let this ruin your holiday!” Well is this complete? It certainly looks unfinished but I can't continue further than this .

Zen Mondo

A monk asked the master: "How are you when death arrives?"

The master replied: " When served tea, I take tea. when served a meal, I take a meal."

Zen Mondo

Vultures eating a buffalo before I go to Satsang in Varanasi.If you look beyond the vultures you will see a gathering of people , that's where I was heading.

Thankyou Zen Mondo for your quotes!

Waves in the Sea

Your nature is the consciousness , in which the whole world wells up, like waves in the sea. that is what you are,without any doubt, so be free of disturbance.

-Ashtavakra Gita-

In a moments

On a holy

River

A moment is captured

Free of the past

Of movement without any taint

A dance, in joy!

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Lilies of the Field

"Consider the lilies of the field how they grow;they toil not , neither do they spin;And yet I say unto you , that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these."

-Christ-

To be present

Is to be free.

Just to see,

This.

In every moment ,

Is like lilies

Who do not

Toil and weep

For the morrow.

Atma Vichar

Atma Vichar is seeing the root of the "I" thought .

What is this "I " thought ? It is the feeling that you are somebody existing .Along with this primary feeling of existing, emotions and thoughts arise creating a picture about yourself and others in the past , present and future.Self inquiry is stripping the pictures you have about yourself down to the essential and pure experience of the fundamental fact that; "I exist" and investigating where this comes from .It is a direct and immeadiate inquiry requiring NO TIME. As you sit and gently rest your attention on yourself just as you are right now, you actually touch Consciousness existing purely as it is .Take this moment to leave every idea of what you did , what you are feeling presently, and what you will do for just this moment alone, and be just here .It takes no time at all.And that does mean right NOW!

Here is the base of your existence as you know yourself to be.

It is from this base , the feeling of "I" sprouts with all the pictures about yourself and others.This is the platform and foundation from which the "I" thought exists . If you remain here just look directly at yourself without anything else, this platform is Consciousness meeting Consciousness.If you stay here long enough you will experience bliss.

What will happen if this platform is
removed?

From here you must ask and follow the thread of Consciousness and investigate !" WHERE DOES THIS FEELING OF EXISTING COME FROM ??" Remaining with the feeling of existing as you are, this feeling pours into Itself and you begin to sink into Yourself . Staying and sinking into Yourself you look where you are coming from within Yourself. An unending spaciousness will arise and if you look with a gentleness, a joy can be felt .

What is This ?

Gently Going deeper than any feeling yet feeling spaciousness, SEE WHAT THIS UNENDING SPACIOUSNESS IS APPEARING IN .If you see correctly you will detect a point that is like disappearance. It is invisible , indivisible , immutable, uncontained, beyond the "I" thought .No body of thought ,no emotions or feelings = nobody ! If you follow this with sincerity, your head is in the Tigers mouth !There is no way for return, you no longer see yourself as you have been .From here you know you are That; invisible ,indivisible , immutable and untouched Awareness .

The true essence of enquiry is this point of departure from the
known into the unknown .

Leaving behind the ground of Consciousness there is a shift towards Awareness (like foreground merging into background). Awareness has no qualities , it is untouched , empty of emptiness, free of time , place or person .Awareness does not need anything, it is free of even itself , Consciousness on the other hand cannot exist without Awareness ,to see and know that you exist there needs to be Awareness ;just as stars need the night sky to be seen .Consciousness dances in Awareness and symptoms of silence , joy , love , peace arise.Consciousness and Awareness are like the cloud in the sky. The sky has space for the cloud , and the cloud being so full ,bursts .When the rain falls people become happy and enjoy the cool water after the heat of day . So as a by-product of this inquiry , Joy , Peace , Serenity and a Happiness can arise .

You no longer invest in the story and self image that you took
yourself to be .

Now you are an expression of Consciousness that is effortlessly touching Awareness. Just as a mirror can reflect the images that pass before it. Awareness, mirrorlike reflects"life" or Consciousness dancing within Itself .You go about your life just as you have, with less of a hold on your ideas . You can still go to the movies , cook ,talk , read and deal with your day to day life . It is lighter and freer to be not what you took yourself to be .After all this is a love affair with yourself .

You are the screen of Awareness itself

and You are the character, Consciousness projected onto the screen pretending to be someone you're not .

NOW ! Where do you begin and
end?

Right Now

Here it is , right now .start thinking about it and you miss it .

-Tao Shan-

Wisdom and Love

I find that somehow, by shifting the focus of attention, I become the very thing I look at, and experience the kind of consciousness it has; I become the inner witness of the thing. I call this capacity of entering other focal points of consciousness, love; you may give it any name you like. Love says "I am everything". Wisdom says "I am nothing". Between the two, my life flows. Since at any point of time and space I can be both the subject and the object of experience, I express it by saying that I am both, and neither, and beyond both.

--Nisargadatta Maharaj

Entering within yourself

You see the temple of

Self Itself.

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Laughing Shiva

Only now there is

This moment To meet Shiva.

To offer a flower

Unsmelt

And to have it

Consumed by the Divine cow!

Your laughter drifts

Down the Ganga .

A smile , a joy

Untold .

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Shankara

"That which permeates all, which nothing transcends and which, like the universal space around us, fills everything completely from within and without, that Supreme non-dual Brahman --that thou are."

Shankara

Without A Trace

Like a golden flower of raindrops

This silence ever unfolding

Bird on a wing

Leaving no footprints

In the blue sky

I fly with you

I fly with you

Burn all the bridges behind

The sun never meets the moon

The river runs to the ocean

I'll only be drowned by you .

Just as the wandering mind

Is seeking for peace

In it's futility.

It is revealed to be

Like fish in a sea, so thirsty.

And just as the sun never comes and

Meets the moon,

The mind bows to give way

To the mystery.

The invitation is to

Fly like a bird to the sky,

Where you cannot see any trace of footprints.

They are left behind,

Now you walk without feet and fly without wings,

And the flowers shower.

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Open Gaze

How many times did I look
to find that you are everywhere
like the sky!

In the silence of the day
You come my way
in the sunshine
in this silent
open gaze.

Looking over the sea
I see infinity
My vision expands

Like a vast open transparency
That holds the sea itself .
The sea and horizon reaches out
And literally I feel they are in me.
Me becomes a vast ocean of
Unending spacious clarity.
I hold everything that
I can see and in deed not see.

Behind me ,in front of me ,
Above me and below me .
As if a cross is pointed
In all these directions .
My own vision
Is all pervasive.

I see the real meaning in the cross.
The center has a meeting
Which is true recognition .

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13:13-18: I am everywhere in the world, abiding in the hands, feet, eyes, heads, mouths, ears; I am all pervading.Illuminating the qualities of all senses, yet possessing no senses, maintaining everything, yet without being attached to anything, devoid of all material qualities, yet employing the senses,I am within and without all beings, both the unmoving and the moving. Due to My subtle nature, I am unknowable. I am far away yet near.Undivided, yet abiding within all living beings as if divided, the maintainer of all beings, the object of knowledge, devouring all; I am pre eminent.In all luminous objects I am the light; I am beyond darkness. I am said to be knowledge, the object of knowledge and the goal of knowledge; I am established within the hearts of all.Thus I have briefly explained the field, knowledge and the object of knowledge. Knowing this, My devotees are eligible to attain Me.

Bhagavad Gita.