Healing with Heart

Sitting here quietly , I have no idea what I am going to say . Over the last few months I have been organising, arranging, clarifying , ordering , changing and making better in any way that I can , and making the best for myself here in Perth .It comes like two steps forward one step back .......Along with this has come some seeing , understanding , loving , healing and being . Many subjects have crossed into my field and all to do with healing and discovering new ways to see things , and in a new light .





I followed up best I could by aquiring, ingesting and experiencing before saying too much; then I must admit that I felt at times like I had said too much when sharing . One thinks that I have lost my faith , one thinks that I have gone astray , and another cannot relate at all, missing the point altogether in making a cursory comment. Yet still within is a fire that is burning from the place I call , well what do I call it ? How can I call it a name , my mind just stops at the impossibility of naming, " My Heart " , and it is the same heart that you are . Together we will find that it cannot be named nor grasped. Yet we SEE in this that even we are not together in this . How can we be together when we are 'one ....without a second' .



Yesterday I had coffee with some people I have known for some years , and it was just like being in a bubble ..... mummblings here , mummblings there ........ an experience I have had before with them .Russell says " Just be present when you cannot hear" .......and good advice it is . I remember when I started to live another way of life,many years ago , and a good friend said , "your friends are now playing another card game now , you have only changed games , thats all " . Someone brushed aside my attempt to really get across the feeling of being in India; especially in Tiruvannamalai .





I could undoubtedly feel not only the present surroundings but also the mountains power and the imprints of centuries of Nayanars ,not only of one man who will be there in time, soon. Yet ALL of time there; while standing looking up to the fiery mountain top, all swallowed into this very mountain presence . Brushed off with a " oh, well I can do that here"....... in the context of such a place this is not so "here" , but if you really see this , truly and honestly, then it is so. There is no need to wait calculating for a 'special' someone to help you switch on the light.

Over the last few months I have been working on some healing for myself , this body and on others . Though it may sound like it is a straying away from Vedanta .... in that it is involving a 'Me' and " another" , in Vedanta they speak of the dehatma budhi idea which is the body mind thought .Questing what is at the root of the body mind is Atma Vichar . A business man once told me that if I go into healing that it did'nt make sense after doing all this inquiry .As long as one knows he is not doing it , then he can proceed otherwise he will be entangled with doership. Healing has opened my eyes a bit to see that we can change and affect - through the surrendering of the limitations that are presently believed in . Through giving up the ego and it's stories; they are not mine or yours but like pictures painted as a 'me' which is limited, standing in front of the skylike nature looking bigger than the sky.

That true nature is powerful and healing, because it is whole and complete with fullness and abundance . The healing results that I am witnessing with my mother are become more evident , now that others see what has been happening as a result of this .But it is not "I" that has done this , because I am not here to do these healings , yet the body is recieving this light, this awareness which is in all bodies , move one part of the pattern you affect all parts in the pattern , add the feeling of love in the pattern then in the entire pattern comes love .





Together with a tool , the same tool used to discriminate between what is real and unreal, one can invite and recieve grace and love that is unconditional healing.

Full Moon Pradakshina

Here is footage I shot on full moon Pradakshina by Arunachala . I decided to film walking in the Shakti direction ( that is walking against the crowd , anti clockwise). Chengam road is full of sounds as I listen through my headphones, it is very alive! At the time I was focusing on filming and oblivious to the cymbals and bells ringing around (no not my Tinnitus!) .My high frequency deafness can only get so much!The rest is visual .Hear a bell synchronizing in the end, which is perfect.

Waking UP

ARISE Oh Wanderer!

These last days are coming closer to the back trip to Delhi . Of all places the one place to avoid like a plauge (it is very hot there); but I'll only be there for a night and then heading out for the late night flight .

It has been very good for me here , and now I am ready to see what unfolds in the next part of the journey .I feel this place has encouraged me to look deeper . If not deeper than just to see as it is is, already. A complete and open seeing in my everyday place with every order of thing here . It has secretly been revealing in some formidable way for which I cannot tell you .
Bhagsu Shrine

Because I am in this place where you can only see through the lens of a camera , with these pics I take . Certainly experiencing a place like this is something which reminds me of being in Arunachala .But it of course is not the external appearance but the Isness which is the power of yourself which is seeing Itself as Itself .This is being revealed , but I tell you nothing is really happening!

The bird and the tree spirit.(Look carefully for the face in the Bark)

When asked about being with U.G. I often comment without hesitation that "something has been removed , but what it is , I have no Idea " . That is still with me even though I have surrounded my self with this culture rich in gods , meditation , and spiritual yearning . At first I came to see beautiful and a somewhat distorted relationship with a girl and a friend and that now has disappeared into a space where I am looking at everything with a smile . Plunging into the Self is seeing you as you are and seeing this can be absorbing as you see that all around you is included in the source .

Images and movement.

All the images and movement appearing in the mind arise and disappear , what remains is the stainless and pure awareness .Now decribing it becomes a point in the past but allowing it is living proof of its aliveness in everything .Allowing means including all the points in the moving appearance as Awareness .Awareness means allowing yourself to rest in that place of no images or quietness .The movement is no longer separate from Awareness . The bridge is seen but no one is crossing over .

Morning Tulsi Tea.

I have noticed that Russell has struck me from his links and so no one has been coming here to see the latest ( Oh what a mean man he is ) .It was through his page that I had some visitors . I must say I was slack on this page before I ever started to get involved again ......So I am writing to no one . While he is busy being happy with a fat Swami ,I am being busy enjoying my balcony scene over Dalasani village . Oh well .......as I listen to Loreena Mckennit another image amongst others I will enjoy just sitting here and enjoy the blessings of this place .


The Blessings of THIS Place .Is equal in all things !

Haro Hara

Theerthananda

Well this is my first entry since leaving Perth for Tiruvannamalai unfortunately I did'nt bring a digital with me but have taken a few photos with ye old camera from the first week when I went up to the cave on the other side of the mountain and had a bath in one of the pools left there by the rains , when you float in the pool all the little tadpoles come and nibble and have a meal of your skin ,and did I laugh when they all had a go at me .

Yesterday was Deepam which is a huge event here attracting many people and I had the good fortune to witness a beauty on top of mount Arunachala . A light is blazing on the mount and tonight with the weather clearing out we will have more of the fire to see against the night sky .To walk around the mountain with the people is so strong , boys running in groups shouting "Haro Hara !!!! " which is the chant when the fire is lit and other groups of men walking fast and chanting out to Shiva, women holding hands sing 'Arunachala Shiva' continuosly . . Sadhus smiling ,Sadhus begging , Sadhus with pierced tounges ,deformed people lying on the road with a rag for people to drop rupees in , old men and women walk the distance and of course there is the famous chai stop . A good rest makes you realise how strong this Pradakshina is , it is so strong, it is like being inebriated . Literaly as if the road is starting to disappear under your feet and suddenly you are walking in space . A good rest to the phenomenon you are experincing is just to have a chai !

Chaibas

Then you pick yourself up and enter the stream of bodies venerating a mountain in the form of Shiva . When we completed the walk muscles where sore but the rest I had was good .
People say "why worship a mountain? You don't have to go to India for that" . They say this with the viewpoint that You yourself are more important than searching and wandering India . but this (travelling) is still in the play of conciousness and to be in a place of your inner most self is a blessing; Arunachala invokes this in you! It is a living power of Shiva and Shakti that stirs up all the devils and brings them into light so they may be freed . So where else does such a place exist for just this ?

Tiruvannamalai

Soon I leave for the dusty temple town , where Shiva is celebrated upon the dry and rocky soil of Tiuvannamalai .Where people come to walk reverentially around a holy place such as Arunachala . The mountain is said to be Shiva , and sign of his manifestation . The sacred story goes that A subtle light ,a pillar that stretches into infinity reaches from this place and aligns with the constellation of the Paladies (karthik) in December ,which will be directly above it when throngs of people (up to 2.5 million ) will gather to light a flame of large proportion to blaze for ten to thirteen days during which there is celebrations of processions dancing and singing . To walk around the mountain is said to be wish fullfilling and granting ones desire to be liberated Eternally.

A place of Tapas, (Ganapati Sastri (also called Ganapati Muni) had visited many sacred places in India, and had learned to repeat mantras and to perform tapas (asceticism). He was not satisfied, and so he asked Ramana what tapas was. Ramana replied that if one observes the source where the notion ‘I’ arises, and the source where the mantra is produced, and if the mind is absorbed into that source, that is tapas) it can be a catalyst for burning up latent tendencies that may arise.

To sit on the mountain is good , it is a quiet and solitary place to spend some peaceful solitute before returning to the town and traffic which winds it's way around the mountain . I like to walk up to Skandashram which is a 45 minute walk up steps to a cave where Ramana Maharshi sat for a number of years . Here it is like a shade of oasis and silence , and definitely a place conducive for meditation . I find it much easier to slip into deep states of absorbtion in these places , if one can rest then the rest can be profoundly deep . Below it is another cave said to have been inhabited by the Sage Virupaksha whose remains are there within the lingam made by Ramana himself .A place that is potent with silence it is also a sauna to sit in and sweat .

In the town itself is the main temple of Arunachalaeshwara and is where the Fire lingam is presented to devotees . Tiruvannamalai has the lingam for the fire element , and so you see why it can be experienced as a place where latent tendencies can be burnt!The other places of the remaining elements are : Kalahasti - Vayu or Wind element said to be the father of Hanuman , Kanchipuram - Earth lingam said to be the place where Bodhidharma came from .Sresialam - Water lingam .There is also a lingam for Space in Chidambaram of course there is no lingam because it is full of space .

During the festival once I was in the town for the celebrations and followed the procession of the gods who were being paraded by the many people out of the main temple, caught up in the excitement of the crowds we ran down a lane way barefoot and climbed up these steps, as this is where they mounted the deity onto the giant raths or chariots which they pull around the entire temple complex . There were so many coconut husk on the ground from the offerings that I was literally walking over one vast coconut mat . This small place on the left is were I climbed to watch the procession to mount the gods into the raths .

Sitting Silently

- What's that man doing by the mountain there?
-Let's go and ask him.
-Are you sitting here waiting for a friend?
-No
-Then you are here to breathe the fresh air, right?
-No
-Then why are you sitting here?
-I am just sitting.

Most people live in a dualistic world of gains and losses, self and object. If the scenery is beautiful, I'm happy ;if not , I'm disappointed.

Wisdom and Love

I find that somehow, by shifting the focus of attention, I become the very thing I look at, and experience the kind of consciousness it has; I become the inner witness of the thing. I call this capacity of entering other focal points of consciousness, love; you may give it any name you like. Love says "I am everything". Wisdom says "I am nothing". Between the two, my life flows. Since at any point of time and space I can be both the subject and the object of experience, I express it by saying that I am both, and neither, and beyond both.

--Nisargadatta Maharaj

Entering within yourself

You see the temple of

Self Itself.

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To The Gentle

Silent footfalls surround you
In the morning light your beauty
Shines it's light upon golden green.

An unmoving sign of beauty
An unmoving silent beauty
Touches me and you.

Resting Quietly
The space
Around us is touched
By the Untouched.
Gently a song arises ,
A joy, a flower, a jewel
Comes from listening
To the gentle.

The gentle
So gently
Meets
So it dances.

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Open Gaze

How many times did I look
to find that you are everywhere
like the sky!

In the silence of the day
You come my way
in the sunshine
in this silent
open gaze.

Looking over the sea
I see infinity
My vision expands

Like a vast open transparency
That holds the sea itself .
The sea and horizon reaches out
And literally I feel they are in me.
Me becomes a vast ocean of
Unending spacious clarity.
I hold everything that
I can see and in deed not see.

Behind me ,in front of me ,
Above me and below me .
As if a cross is pointed
In all these directions .
My own vision
Is all pervasive.

I see the real meaning in the cross.
The center has a meeting
Which is true recognition .

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13:13-18: I am everywhere in the world, abiding in the hands, feet, eyes, heads, mouths, ears; I am all pervading.Illuminating the qualities of all senses, yet possessing no senses, maintaining everything, yet without being attached to anything, devoid of all material qualities, yet employing the senses,I am within and without all beings, both the unmoving and the moving. Due to My subtle nature, I am unknowable. I am far away yet near.Undivided, yet abiding within all living beings as if divided, the maintainer of all beings, the object of knowledge, devouring all; I am pre eminent.In all luminous objects I am the light; I am beyond darkness. I am said to be knowledge, the object of knowledge and the goal of knowledge; I am established within the hearts of all.Thus I have briefly explained the field, knowledge and the object of knowledge. Knowing this, My devotees are eligible to attain Me.

Bhagavad Gita.